25 May 2010


Quite suddenly, all is calm.
The cousins and aunt flew out this morning and my roommate left for Mexico.
Quite suddenly, I have a blank calendar and a partially empty house, just for me.
I've noticed that when I'm crazy busy, I crave silence and solitude and free time, but once it's handed to me, I get restless.  Today I allowed myself to stew in all of the different emotions that were somewhat postponed from all the visiting and revelry.  But I need to make a schedule for myself, fast, otherwise I could stew all summer.  Tomorrow morning will involve lots of lists while I drink my peppermint tea.
Shari's post about mornings made me think a lot about how I can choose to structure my days, now that I have the flexibility.  Generally I limit myself with the "night owl" label, and stay up later than I want to.  But this morning when I drove everyone to the airport at 6am, the sun was just peeking over the mountains and the trees seemed alert and everything was quiet, and I had one of those moments.  You know the kind.
I have seven weeks before my summer job starts, so this is going to be my time.  It really feels like a gift to have such a stretch of time for myself.  
I'm going to brainstorm how I want this time of mine to take shape, and I'll be back very soon with the plan.


  1. Wow, beautifully written!
    that's always when you want to be alone you can`t and when you are alone it`s boring.
    thanks for comment!


  2. You described that so perfectly. I love that you recognize that you need to be able to stew in different emotions. Lately, I've just been bottling mine up and trying to suppress them--facing them head on can seem so scary sometimes, can't it?

  3. I’m not a loner by any means, but sometimes being alone is a beautiful thing. It’s nice to sit in the silence of a beautiful morning, looking out a window with a hot cup of tea/coffee and attempting to think about nothing except that moment. I hope you enjoy these next 7 weeks before work starts!!! Fill it with plenty of fun adventures :)

  4. Oh, that's wonderful! I would love to have a stretch of time all to myself! Enjoy it!

  5. Glad you will have some time for yourself. I love peppermint tea! :)

  6. there is a beautiful magic inside peaceful, quiet mornings. inside daybreak. cherish these quiet weeks. cherish the silence. discover something wonderful inside it :)

  7. We all need to stew in emotions..it's healthy. And I can't wait for the Plan!


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