Quite suddenly, all is calm.
The cousins and aunt flew out this morning and my roommate left for Mexico.
Quite suddenly, I have a blank calendar and a partially empty house, just for me.
I've noticed that when I'm crazy busy, I crave silence and solitude and free time, but once it's handed to me, I get restless. Today I allowed myself to stew in all of the different emotions that were somewhat postponed from all the visiting and revelry. But I need to make a schedule for myself, fast, otherwise I could stew all summer. Tomorrow morning will involve lots of lists while I drink my peppermint tea.
Shari's post about mornings made me think a lot about how I can choose to structure my days, now that I have the flexibility. Generally I limit myself with the "night owl" label, and stay up later than I want to. But this morning when I drove everyone to the airport at 6am, the sun was just peeking over the mountains and the trees seemed alert and everything was quiet, and I had one of those moments. You know the kind.
I have seven weeks before my summer job starts, so this is going to be my time. It really feels like a gift to have such a stretch of time for myself.
I'm going to brainstorm how I want this time of mine to take shape, and I'll be back very soon with the plan.