I've been thinking a lot about this space and what I share here. Not a lot, as I've realized, scrolling through the past couple months' entries. And it's funny because the blogs I enjoy the most are the ones where people are really putting themselves out there, sharing moments from their lives, exposing their weaknesses along with all the other great shiny stuff. But there's this fine line where it turns into exhibitionism, and I don't have the faintest idea of where that line lies. While this is meant to a be a journal for my creative experiments and explorations, I would also like for it to be a journal of some of my daily realm as well, and it will certainly be taking much more of that essence while I'm in Antarctica. I think it's possible that one might get a sense of who I am or what I stand for in the photos that I take and post, and the snippets of thoughts I expose from time to time. But it takes a different brand of bravery to really step out into the blog spotlight, I think. I've been looking to blogs that I think have really mastered this - For Me, For You, Color Me Katie, The Art of Seeing Things… these lovely women don't put their entire lives out there, but you really get the feel for their personhood, their passions. So I'm going to start taking more baby steps here, start putting myself out there, stop worrying about what everyone thinks or who reads this.
A couple of things to share at the moment:
- I just saw Inception. The concept and the originality completely blew my mind. Whenever I see or experience something this wildly creative, it always leaves me in a bit of a wake where I feel somewhat miserable, thinking that I can never possibly create something so bold or imaginative. I'm working on reframing this thought. Regardles, go see it. It's one of those films that demands to be seen in the theater.
- I've been thinking about writing a memoir-ish piece based on the lovers I've had in life. The idea of sexual encounters as markers on a timeline is very fascinating to me. Just as all people do, I have a very complicated relationship with Love (yes, capital L), and I've been trying to sort through it. I think I'll write more about this sometime soon.
- There are only two weeks and five days until I am supposed to be going to Antarctica. I haven't been PQ'd yet (physically qualified) because my labs leaked in the mail (what!? how does that happen?!) and I had to go in last week and do them all over again. I'm not sure what happens if you don't get PQ'd in time, but I have my fingers crossed that everything gets sorted out quickly.
-It's still too hot for my liking. But I'm working on embracing it, considering it was -92F with the windchill yesterday at McMurdo Station (where I'll be stationed in Antarctica). Yikes.