Processing the emotionally difficult but wildly fun and empowering job I just finished up at Flathead Lake.
Starting to put my mind towards the week long journey to the bottom of the world I'll be making in exactly one week.
Beginning to pack, which is literally my least favorite thing to do. I have never packed for 7 months in the coldest place on earth and then 2 months in New Zealand, and let me tell you, it's not easy. I have a spreadsheet going with about two pages typed in so far, and only half of a suitcase packed.
Packing always leads to creative discoveries via procrastination for me, and while sitting exasperated on my bedroom floor, I glanced under my bed. Out came my old art portfolio, along with hideous strands of dust and hair. Yeah, I don't look under there very often.
I proceeded to go through all of the hilarious, nostalgic, and slightly disturbing pieces, having a new outlook on the work with some college psychology under my belt. Images that confused me and kept popping up in my drawings back then make a lot more sense now.
I also found a little folder with my first attempts at film photography, a medium that frustrated me, as I didn't have enough of a grasp on the process. (And still don't).
But looking at them made me think about how far my photos have come. I really like the two that I am posting below, photos that an angrier and younger version of myself took six years ago. But all of the other photos are underexposed, sloppy, clearly taken with a grumpy haste. Even the photos I was taking earlier this year no longer speak to me as clearly. And I think it's because of all the blogs I look at, all of the incredible flickr accounts I admire. Looking at the work people put out there, and examining what I like about them has been similar to being in a photography class for me, except one I feel comfortable in, and can see my growth from.
So, here are my procrastinatory (new word?) discoveries from the past. And yes, this is a form of procrastination in itself, and yes, I am avoiding the future looming closer and closer by divulging in this.